Editing Interview:2007/07 The Passion of the Anti-Christ Superstar

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'''What as the final realisation? '''<br>Realising that being artistic and being me can't be separated. I was in a position where I was expected to separate what I do with who I am, and I've never believed that an artist is more important than their art unless they're one and the same. I started to get in a position where I felt guilty about working, because I wasn't able to be a person in a relationship or fulfil some sort of concept of what love equals to someone else. I couldn’t literally follow my ex-wife in the explosion of her career in the same way that she did for me. So, a lot of depression came out, because I felt disappointed that I couldn't make someone fell happy about their success and also feel happy about being me. Ultimately I didn't realise until I sang one song ''[[Just a Car Crash Away|Just A Car Crash Away]]'', which turned into the record, essentially. It wasn't that simple to make, but I didn't realise looking back, that I need to fell empowered like most people do, in why people might relate to this record more than anything else I've ever done. I need to fell that I can make someone else empathise with who I am, or what I do, or I don't have an identity.  
 
'''What as the final realisation? '''<br>Realising that being artistic and being me can't be separated. I was in a position where I was expected to separate what I do with who I am, and I've never believed that an artist is more important than their art unless they're one and the same. I started to get in a position where I felt guilty about working, because I wasn't able to be a person in a relationship or fulfil some sort of concept of what love equals to someone else. I couldn’t literally follow my ex-wife in the explosion of her career in the same way that she did for me. So, a lot of depression came out, because I felt disappointed that I couldn't make someone fell happy about their success and also feel happy about being me. Ultimately I didn't realise until I sang one song ''[[Just a Car Crash Away|Just A Car Crash Away]]'', which turned into the record, essentially. It wasn't that simple to make, but I didn't realise looking back, that I need to fell empowered like most people do, in why people might relate to this record more than anything else I've ever done. I need to fell that I can make someone else empathise with who I am, or what I do, or I don't have an identity.  
  
'''What did it take so long to realise things were so bad?''' <br>I assumed that's how all relationships are as opposed to be, because you expect something in response. I never knew that, until after that part of my life just completely disintegrated into a place where I felt I had nothing to care about. I had no reason to live, it wasn't the same as wanting to die, it was just not having a reason to live, it wasn't the same as wanting to die, it was just not having a reason to live. I an look back now thinking, 'How can I have that way?' These songs were written in the same way that anyone who keeps a diary (which I don't), would write something. It never occurred to me to write something as simple as the first song on the record, ''[[If I Was Your Vampire]]''. On Christmas I was inspired by the whole new relationship that was developing in my life, and saying, 'I believe in you, and I believe in the fact that you and I are the same. That I'll die, if you wanna die.' And at that point you don't want to die anymore, you've found somebody else who is like you, so I think at that point, the record became a record, and my life became worth living.  
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'''What did it take so long to realise things were so bad?''' <br>I assumed that's how all relationships are as opposed to be, because you expect something in response. I never knew that, until after that part of my life just completely disintegrated into a place where I felt I had nothing to care about. I had no reason to live, it wasn't the same as wanting to die, it was just not having a reason to live, it wasn't the same as wanting to die, it was just not having a reason to live. I an look back now thinking, 'How can I have that way?' These songs were written in the same way that anyone who keeps a diary (which I don't), would write something. It never occurred to me to write something as simple as the first song on the record, ''If I Was Your Vampire''. On Christmas I was inspired by the whole new relationship that was developing in my life, and saying, 'I believe in you, and I believe in the fact that you and I are the same. That I'll die, if you wanna die.' And at that point you don't want to die anymore, you've found somebody else who is like you, so I think at that point, the record became a record, and my life became worth living.  
  
 
'''So your creativity was born from finding happiness and resolution in your life, rather than the hurt felt for divorce?''' <br>It's hard for me to have the distance from everything, because it's still all so recent. In many ways my last relationship may have been a muse to my life transforming, more than it was towards ever making a record. The new record isn't any more about my divorce than it is about my new romance with Evan, my girlfriend. It's really more about me and how I felt transformed, being reincarnated, or reborn as myself, because I'd lost my identity.  
 
'''So your creativity was born from finding happiness and resolution in your life, rather than the hurt felt for divorce?''' <br>It's hard for me to have the distance from everything, because it's still all so recent. In many ways my last relationship may have been a muse to my life transforming, more than it was towards ever making a record. The new record isn't any more about my divorce than it is about my new romance with Evan, my girlfriend. It's really more about me and how I felt transformed, being reincarnated, or reborn as myself, because I'd lost my identity.  
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'''And that became a question of Confidence?''' <br>I couldn't find confidence in my past relationship, yet found it in my new friendship and starting romance. Anyone who makes music says the most important thing is when someone comes up to you and says 'this song changed my life.' Fro me, it's 100% true; that's a bigger motivating force than I was willing to recognise. Unconsciously I used to associate music with being an amour or some way to tell everyone how I deserved to feel the way I do. But it was never seducing or inviting people to understand me as much as to understand my ideas, and this record is about understanding me.  
 
'''And that became a question of Confidence?''' <br>I couldn't find confidence in my past relationship, yet found it in my new friendship and starting romance. Anyone who makes music says the most important thing is when someone comes up to you and says 'this song changed my life.' Fro me, it's 100% true; that's a bigger motivating force than I was willing to recognise. Unconsciously I used to associate music with being an amour or some way to tell everyone how I deserved to feel the way I do. But it was never seducing or inviting people to understand me as much as to understand my ideas, and this record is about understanding me.  
  
'''Is the vampire theme present on ''[[Eat Me, Drink Me]]'' maybe a bit obvious?''' <br>That's why I've embraced things like the vampire mythology, and the religious content of Christ, and consuming someone symbolically and literally, because they became themes of my life, not just themes I chose for my records. I realised, as much as I want to deny or not delve into the obvious cliché of the vampire, I've been called it for song long - I function best at night, it's a romantic character associated with evil, and its weakness is art. And I just learnt that as much as I could make myself invincible to the world, I could be destroyed simply by romance. I ad to make my weakness my strength. I was on the brink of starting to hate who I am, and hate the idea that people like me. I didn't want people to like me, because I didn't like myself.  
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'''Is the vampire theme present on ''Eat Me, Drink Me'' maybe a bit obvious?''' <br>That's why I've embraced things like the vampire mythology, and the religious content of Christ, and consuming someone symbolically and literally, because they became themes of my life, not just themes I chose for my records. I realised, as much as I want to deny or not delve into the obvious cliché of the vampire, I've been called it for song long - I function best at night, it's a romantic character associated with evil, and its weakness is art. And I just learnt that as much as I could make myself invincible to the world, I could be destroyed simply by romance. I ad to make my weakness my strength. I was on the brink of starting to hate who I am, and hate the idea that people like me. I didn't want people to like me, because I didn't like myself.  
  
 
'''Have all your relationships been dysfunctional? '''<br>There has been a recurring theme in all my relationships, and particularly my marriage, hearing someone saying to me, 'How can you listen to that person when they're just a stupid fan. They don't know you.' I never realised the absurdity that you could disqualify someone because they like what you do, when what you do is who you are. Now looking back, I was starting to split what I do with who I am, which is the opposite of what I started out with, and I saved it at the last moment. Now I feel, no embarrassed, but I feel like I could never go back to feeling that way, and feel very confident in moving forward.  
 
'''Have all your relationships been dysfunctional? '''<br>There has been a recurring theme in all my relationships, and particularly my marriage, hearing someone saying to me, 'How can you listen to that person when they're just a stupid fan. They don't know you.' I never realised the absurdity that you could disqualify someone because they like what you do, when what you do is who you are. Now looking back, I was starting to split what I do with who I am, which is the opposite of what I started out with, and I saved it at the last moment. Now I feel, no embarrassed, but I feel like I could never go back to feeling that way, and feel very confident in moving forward.  
  
'''Much of what I've read about ''[[Eat Me, Drink Me]]'' has insinuated it's the break-up album, but I felt that it has a lot more to do with unifying the duality which you've had in you life, as the character Marilyn Manson, and yourself as Brian Warner, how did you begin to reconcile that schism?''' <br>I agree - it's an easy misconception that it's a record about the car crash, as opposed to the record that's documenting the rising from the fire from it. I'm sure people will think that this album would be painful for me to listen to, but actually, I like listening to it. For me, there's nothing that I didn't accomplish on this record, or wish that I could’ve changed. It's a record now that me feel in the same way as the only records that I listened to when I felt void of any kind've creativity, which were For Your Pleasure by Roxy Music, Diamond Dogs by [[David Bowie]] and Purple Rain by Prince. These are records that have a romantic despair which is very reckless, and very matter of fact, and it's how I started to interpret my concept of love, and how it was supposed to be rather than what it was. I was repeatedly watching movies like The Hunger, Bonnie &amp; Clyde and True Romance, and thinking, 'Why can't things be this way?' I found it with Evan. I realised that she's like a twin, almost like a sister, and someone who likes the things that I like. It took seeing myself in someone else to realise that I don't hate being me, because being me is appealing, and I did the simplest thing that eluded me for my entire career, and my entire life, I tried to write songs to a person to try to get a response. It's the same as when I perform live, I try to get a response from the crowd, but I never did that when writing songs. I always thought I was supposed to make a greater statement or try and defend myself, so it was an entirely different approach.  
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'''Much of what I've read about ''Eat Me, Drink Me'' has insinuated it's the break-up album, but I felt that it has a lot more to do with unifying the duality which you've had in you life, as the character Marilyn Manson, and yourself as Brian Warner, how did you begin to reconcile that schism?''' <br>I agree - it's an easy misconception that it's a record about the car crash, as opposed to the record that's documenting the rising from the fire from it. I'm sure people will think that this album would be painful for me to listen to, but actually, I like listening to it. For me, there's nothing that I didn't accomplish on this record, or wish that I could’ve changed. It's a record now that me feel in the same way as the only records that I listened to when I felt void of any kind've creativity, which were For Your Pleasure by Roxy Music, Diamond Dogs by [[David Bowie]] and Purple Rain by Prince. These are records that have a romantic despair which is very reckless, and very matter of fact, and it's how I started to interpret my concept of love, and how it was supposed to be rather than what it was. I was repeatedly watching movies like The Hunger, Bonnie &amp; Clyde and True Romance, and thinking, 'Why can't things be this way?' I found it with Evan. I realised that she's like a twin, almost like a sister, and someone who likes the things that I like. It took seeing myself in someone else to realise that I don't hate being me, because being me is appealing, and I did the simplest thing that eluded me for my entire career, and my entire life, I tried to write songs to a person to try to get a response. It's the same as when I perform live, I try to get a response from the crowd, but I never did that when writing songs. I always thought I was supposed to make a greater statement or try and defend myself, so it was an entirely different approach.  
  
 
'''How did Evan come in to your life? '''<br>I initially met her, and started talking to her about acting in one of the two roles in my film about Lewis Carroll. One being to play a nineteenth century, more carnal, version of Alice. I think she's one of the greatest actresses, and I think that for me, as a director, it was amazing to find a great actress to work with. This was to be played opposite the model, Lily Cole, who I also believe, has the potential to be a very good actress. It was this strange thing that maybe I was living beyond art imitating itself, I was doing the same thing I was writing about, I was writing about Lewis Carroll in my head, but I was also writing about myself. It was almost me fulfilling my script and really ironically the whole transformation that I had gone through.  
 
'''How did Evan come in to your life? '''<br>I initially met her, and started talking to her about acting in one of the two roles in my film about Lewis Carroll. One being to play a nineteenth century, more carnal, version of Alice. I think she's one of the greatest actresses, and I think that for me, as a director, it was amazing to find a great actress to work with. This was to be played opposite the model, Lily Cole, who I also believe, has the potential to be a very good actress. It was this strange thing that maybe I was living beyond art imitating itself, I was doing the same thing I was writing about, I was writing about Lewis Carroll in my head, but I was also writing about myself. It was almost me fulfilling my script and really ironically the whole transformation that I had gone through.  

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